Thursday, January 28, 2016

A letter to my son....

Dear Maco,

I was thinking back to our conversation yesterday and I wanted to share my thoughts with you.  I believe that some of this is our fault.  In our effort to help get you into a good college, we have reduced everything you are into a page full of accomplishments.  And in doing so, you feel like all you are meant to do is get awards, achieve good grades and test scores.  But that is far from the truth.  Maybe that is how things appear right now, as you are trying to package yourself up as something a college might want.  And because the application process is so limited, it is hard to do much else.  The system has encouraged this type of thinking and we all fell into it and I’m sorry that I did.  I know that I have projected my own college experience onto you, in that I always felt if I had done a little more, or had the right connections I could have gone to Georgetown, my “dream” school.  I want your dreams to come true, but sometimes the dreams we have are not always the ones that come true.  I have a wonderful life in a beautiful town with a great husband, kids I adore and the best friends in the world.  It didn’t matter where I went to school - I am still living a dream, just not the one I had when I was 18.   

Life is not about accomplishments or a good resume, or even a lot of money.  Life is about the connections you have with other people.  It is important to be emotional and to be yourself.  And to be vulnerable, even if that is painful.   Like I said, in order to find who you are, sometimes you need to look at who you were and where you came from. 

You have always been mature for your age, you’ve always engaged easily with adults, and they like you (sometimes more than kids your own age).  You were a beautiful baby and child and you are a handsome teenager.  You are smart and wise and thoughtful.  You are the little boy who wanted to save his mother from the “older” even if he didn’t know what older was.  You are the young man who put his arm around his mother during Sam’s service because she was crying.  You are the friend who stayed with Aidan when his ex-girlfriend was having a party and he was having a bad night.  You are the kid who made Nicole giggle time and again at our kitchen counter.  You are the brother who stayed to support his sister in her ski race even after he crashed in his own race.   You are the friend who has driven lots of drunken kids home from parties.  You are the son who made his dad a sculpture of his favorite tree.   You are the grandson who wrote a poem for his grandmother’s 70th birthday in the back of a cramped ski team van.

These are the things that should be on your resume.  These are the things that colleges should care about.  These are the things that make you human, a good person, and ultimately successful in life.  You are so much more than a ski racer, or a student who got perfect grades.   You are a caring, passionate, curious, lovely teenager who is trying to navigate a complicated and uncertain future in the best way he knows how.   I am proud of everything you are, as well as everything you have done and I love you so much.  Mom


“A happy life is not made up of what you have dreamed of, chased after, and achieved, but rather whom you poured your life into, who poured their life into yours, and the difference you’ve made in the lives of others.”  Susan Meissner

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